This segment on CNN with Soledad O’Brien speaking with current gay soldiers in the closet, those who have been kicked out and SLDN’s Aubrey Sarvis is well worth a watch.
SOLEDAD O’BRIEN, CNN CORRESPONDENT: You may not be able to see it, but this man is nervous. He has every reason to be. He is one of an estimated 60,000 members of the U.S. military serving in the closet.
UNIDENTIFIED MALE: Wondering if this is the day that my secret is going to fly out. Is this the day.
O’BRIEN: You live like that? Everyday?
UNIDENTIFIED MALE: Well, whenever you get the e-mail to come to the office by your boss or somebody is on the phone, and who is on the phone? I don’t know. You never know, is this that phone call.
O’BRIEN: The phone call that will kick you out of the military?
UNIDENTIFIED MALE: Yes.
O’BRIEN: He is a 10-plus year veteran are army intelligence and currently serving overseas. He can’t reveal his identity because of the military policy “don’t ask, don’t tell,” but that is about to change.
SEN. JOHN MCCAIN (R): The committee’s focus is today on the “don’t ask, don’t tell” policy.
O’BRIEN: The service members’ legal defense network has been lobbying Congress to pass the Pentagon’s military spending bill. It has an amendment that would repeal “don’t ask, don’t tell.” You think you have it?
AUBREY SARVIS, SERVICE MEMBERS’ LEGAL DEFENSE NETWORK: This bill will be close. We won the voting committee. We are going to win the vote on the Senate floor. Senator McCain has threatened to filibuster, and so we may have to come up with 60 votes. If we have to we will.
O’BRIEN: But some say that the military is not ready for openly gay service members. For former air force Major Mike Almy, the upcoming vote comes late. How did you find out that you had been caught?
MIKE ALMY, FORMER AIR FORCE MAJOR: My commander called me into his office for a routine meeting which was not out of the order and the first thing he did was to read me the DOD policy on homosexuality, just like and I’m sure I turned ghost white, because I was completely flabbergasted and as if somebody had pulled the rug out from under me.
O’BRIEN: Five years ago, a co-worker found his e-mails to a man he was dating. Almy was booted from the air force.
ALMY: I’m pissed off. I really am. I want my job back. I want my career back.
O’BRIEN: Can you get it back realistically?
ALMY: There have been about 14,000 men and women who have been thrown out under “don’t ask, don’t tell.” So you’ve got to figure there’s maybe two or 3,000 of those who want to come back in. How do you revive a career that’s been completely derailed like mine where I’ve been out for four years now?
O’BRIEN: The repeal won’t automatically lift the ban, and the services could take months to implement the policy. There is no guarantee that ousted members like Almy could return. As it moves forward what advice would you give the members of the military who are closeted? What do you tell them? Wait?
SARVIS: Well, they have to keep in mind that this law has not gone away and serve in silence until you get the green light.
O’BRIEN: When the time comes, breaking that silence will not come easily. UNIDENTIFIED MALE: If it is repealed soon, and I decide to come out, I think it will be some pushback from the colleagues.
O’BRIEN: Pushback in what way?
UNIDENTIFIED MALE: Pushback and major penalties from the co- workers.
O’BRIEN: You will lose friends?
UNIDENTIFIED MALE: Yeah, I will probably lose some friends.
O’BRIEN: Make it worth it, still?
UNIDENTIFIED MALE: Yeah, because I am me. I am who I am.
O’BRIEN: For CNN in America, I’m Soledad O’Brien, Washington, D.C.
If you get a chance to watch it, vs. reading the transcript, do. It is always incredibly powerful watching someone who is serving silence speaking about how physiologically difficult it is to hide who you are on a daily basis and fear you are going to lose your career.
This is the type of clip that is so useful in changing the minds of Americans, as they hear from themselves the stories told by LGBTs about the impact of current laws and policies on their lives.